It's been a little over 6 weeks since I gave birth to my third child and I'm so ready to see my scale numbers head in the down directions instead of staying the same, or even worse, going up. I by no means think I'm suffering from postpartum depression, but I definitely have been very low in the self esteem area. The clothes I have in my closet don't fit me and I'm tired of looking in the mirror in the morning and saying, "Well, that's as good as it's going to get." Yesterday was Halloween and it was the day I decided to stop giving excuses for the reason I haven't lost all the baby weight.
To be honest, I never lost all the baby weight after having my first child, which then made me heavier when I got pregnant with my second and even heavier when I got pregnant with my third. Throughout the past 5 years I've gone up and down with my weight, but I've never actually hit my goal weight. I'm starting this leg of the journey at 167lbs, which may not seem like that much to some people, but on a 5' frame it definitely is unhealthy and hard for me to see on the scale.
I'm going to start running 3 days a week. It's been about a year since I ran last so I know it will take me some time to get my body up to running without stopping. There is a half marathon in April that I've always wanted to do and I'm hoping that by starting this blog I will hold myself accountable to my running and my weight loss.
Since I'm still breastfeeding running has been a struggle for me because by the time I feel like it's "safe" to go for a run is when Oliver is down for the night, which can be anywhere from 8-10 at night and by that point I'm exhausted and lack the motivation to get up off the couch. Again, I've been making excuses when I really have no excuse because I have a treadmill, but I keep telling myself, "I'd run so much more if I could go for a run outside."
In all honesty, I've been finding excuse after excuse to not get myself in shape since I first found out I was pregnant.
My diet has been awful and I know if I would just eat and drink the right way I'd lose quite a bit.
Okay, I'm going to tell you all what my daily breakfast diet has been at least 3 days a week for the last 2 weeks(days I work at the office) and maybe that'll shame me into changing this gross habit. I go to a gas station and get a 32 oz Mt. Dew from the soda fountain machine and I either get 1 double decker oatmeal cream pie and 1 very large blueberry muffin or I get 2 double decker oatmeal cream pies minus the large muffin. Completely grossed out yet? I know I am.
Every morning on my drive to work I have the argument in my head "You don't need to eat that this morning." and "Just eat it, you'll feel better." Obviously now that I'm writing this I know that it is not making me feel better. If I wasn't breastfeeding I guarantee I'd be gaining so much weight. So I know if I were to just switch my breakfast to water and oatmeal like a normal person I'd probably see some weight loss within a week.
Sorry for such a long post and I completely understand if you decided to stop reading half way through, but I need you all to help encourage me and help me stick with it. So I will be having my weigh ins on Thursday and if anyone else wants to join me, PLEASE, I'll be so happy.
So, here it goes, my starting weight this morning was 167. (my head is hung in shame) This is the heaviest I've been not pregnant.
Next Thursday I'll be posting again and may be posting before then with any victories or struggles that I have between now and then. I will also try and post some pictures so that I can track my progress visually as well.
Here's to this long journey ahead.
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